To know him is to love him....

This song of Amy Winehouse "To know him is to love him" really tells what I am feeling for this guy that I really like. Unfortunately, this guy doesn't really appreciate the things I am doing for him or have done for him. Although, he did a looot of good things for me. He is always showing me new things, and bringing me to somewhere I will feel special. Also, I feel that he is really a special guy for some reason. I can't really explain. I don't know if I'm just being blind because of my feelings for him, or he is just really that special person.

I'm really happy just to see him and mostly when he "truly" smile. Not fake, not sarcastic smile, or trying to bully smile. I also feel happy when he's happy, even though it means that he'll be going away from me. I cry, he doesn't know it though. I cry, because my brain knows that I'll just get hurt at the end. but my heart is really blind. Tried so many times to leave him. I blocked him many times. In the end, I still go back to him, but to my surprise, he accepts me every time I go back.

We're okay right now, but I have to give him space alone. He didn't tell me tho, but I really feel that he needs some space. It hurts, because I feel like he doesn't think or care enough that I don't feel good about that. It feels like he doesn't like me or care about me. However, that's what I feel, that's not how he really feels.

But one thing that I realized is it feels much better to just love, than be loved and you can't return it back.

I miss being a teenager..

I really wish I am always a teenager because you are always true to your self. and you can always make friends anytime, anywhere, You don't really feel the big responsibilities, when u hate someone, you can easily show it to her/him, when you grew up and living by yourself, you can't do that anymore. If you hate your boss or your workmate, you can't tell it to them because its a matter of your living. If you got a record of having a bad attitude in your work, you'll always carry it for the rest of your life, and the chance of your success will be really little, and you feel like you are a good robot that they designed. .

It's funny to say this because my teenager life was not really that fun..I was rebellious.. I got a lot of problem because of my parents. I feel like they never understood my feelings, they always said I'm always wrong, and if I did wrong I'll get hit.. they never support what I like, they're just always saying to me what they like me to do so when I was a teenager I really want to grow up right away so I could get away from them..

so if I'll have my teenager. I will always tell him/her to enjoy being a teenager and make a lot of good memories while they can be true to their self all the time.. and I wanna be a part of her good teenage memories not because I'm buying stuff for her but because I am one of her best friend. I'll support her on whatever things she wanna do. I'll give her a confidence that I don't have now.. (because my parents always let me down, and I never heard the "you can do it" phrase from them, instead, saying things that put me down.. or maybe they're just only challenging me.. but I don't want challenge.. I want support. but they are not like that anymore now tho.. but i still think it's too late..) I wrote this now. so I will always remember what to do when my child will become a teenager.

My 25th birthday's Disney World adventure^.^

It was a good morning =) on my birthday
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was taking pictures when we were going in Orlando I like the fog^_^

Then we stopped at Hess to buy gas, oil, breakfast and food (for lunch) to bring in magic kingdom, so we bought Oil for the car, coffee, Donut, milk and Blimpie for lunch and Patrick forgot to buy the gas which is really the main reason why we stoped in there. =.=
So we had to stop again to another gas station.
then while we're in interstate, Patrick was pissed and asked me so many times, Why theres a traffic in interstate?. =.=
So we got near in the magic kingdom and I saw a metro train, and I was like "O_O" and I asked pat, "why the heck Disney got that? and you dont have in real life?" =.=

Then atlast we got in Magic Kingdom with no problem. the we got these pins! woot! and almost every people that worked there greets meh hee hee =^_^=


And we choose to ride a boat to go to entrance of magic kingdom because its been forever since we haven't ride a boat.


Then here we are! Welcome to Disney World Magic Kingdom.


Then there was a play in front of the castle.



I saw this grass its so cute:)


Then we went in tomorrowland
We went to Carousel of Progress first. I cant take a picture of em. but It was so nice. the animatronics thingy looks kinda true person. mostly the eyes. Lol Then after that we went straight right away to Mickey's toontown fair. and Guess what? We have to wait for long line just to take a picture with Mickey and Minnie! =.= then at last we got in there, They hugged me and greet me *pointing their hand to my birthday pin* and I even hear Minnie's kiss. LOL



Then after that we went to fantasy land we went first to "its a small world" full of dolls. and heres some pictures,



Then after that we went to Haunted Mansion. We can't take a pictures =( but Its really so cool! I was really amazed =) Mostly when there was a ghost beside us! Lol

Then after that we went to frontier land, we rode first the Big thunder Mountain Railroad! and omg! I was really scared. I feel like I'm gonna fall in my sit .
Lol Then we went to splash mountain.It was really a looong line, I said to patrick, "Its just weekdays, So what if we went here at weekends." Wish I really can take a picture there, but our camera is not waterproof so better not expose with the water. lol Then after that we ate our lunch blimpie and Mickey Ice cream.


and so we are ready to go to adventureland.


We first went to Pirates of the Carribean, It was cool =) Mostly on the dark part. we are not really allowed to take pictures, but I saw someones tooking. so I took some.

Then after that rode we saw Jack sparrow and idk whos the other one. but Jack sparrow almost looks and sounds like Johnny Depp. HOORAH!


Then we rode the Jungle Cruise, =.= Its kewl I like the fact that I am on the boat. but I dont like the fake animals Lol. but this is really funny.
and I like this one


and then I rode the Magic Carpets of aladdin. and I was laughing alone coz the camel was spitting at meh!! eeeww! lol


Then we went to Swiss Family House. Its cute =) and its so high. If u have phobia on heights you don't wanna go up here :)


Then we rest for a while and drink Pineapple float and pat ate swirl icecream. then we we got thirsty again and hungry and buy frenchfries and coke, and the duck and the birds are with us, I'm kinda wondering why the heck they are not afraid with people. hee hee

and looks like we've been already on all parts of the magic kingdom. So we went back again on tomorrows land and went to stitch great escape.
It was really so cool and feels like true! The stinky burp of stitch smells like taco! LOL

then we rode the Astro Orbiter and pat said he hates me coz I made him dizzy! LOL! so we ddnt really enjoy it! we just close our eyes. LOL

Then we rode the Tomorrowland Transit Authority.


Then our 1st memory card of the camera got full. then the 2nd memory card that patrick bought was broken =.= I forgot that I still have my phone =.= so we kinda stoped taking pictures.

Then we went to Tomorrowland Speedway. and I drove the car :P

Then this is the FUNNIEST PART OF OUR DAY. (until now I'm still laughing)

Patrick and I went to the bathroom because Patrick gonna pee. then after he went to the bathroom Me and Pat rest down a lil bit on the bench then suddenly we just heard "PURRRRROT" and me and pat both look on the old man that sits on the other bench . and we both looked on each other then I said "lets go pat!" *smiling* then when we're kinda far from that oldman we laughed so much for long time and pats even describe how it sounds and said it sounds like when your playing a card. and told me that I am mean. because I said "lets go" after we looked at him. but I'm really gonna be rude If I laugh so loud in front of that oldman. Right?. ahahahahaha

Then we went to the store and looked for a souvenir, I want a mickey mouse head band or a cup or a bag. but at first I said nah. I dont really have money. and so we just go. but then I thought were not gonna be here for a long time so we decided to come back and then I saw a lil vendor, and I saw a jack sparrow keychain. and it was almost $9 so I said. oops. nope. I'd rather have a cup. and so This is what I bought.

A cup which is just $10. I saw another one that said Hero. but Pat said, This one is cool and so I asked "why? coz I am the wicked witch and not your hero?" and he said YES =.=



oh yeah I first bought this rin which is just $2.95 only. Its so cute =)



Then we decided to go home. I'm really thankful that I fulfilled a dream of when I was a kid.Thanks so much to Patrick who brought me here. And I'm thankful that we enjoyed my birthday. I love you Pat.


I hope to see yah soon Mickey and Minnie


and this time we rode the metro train hee hee. It really kinda long time since I havent ride a MetroRailTrain



What a beautiful sunset =) We got home safe and the car is not broken =)


And the End of our Magic Kingdom Adventure.